Saturday, December 17, 2011

I dreamt about a girl being d by her father and I am disturbed.?

is something that makes me very uncomfortable. I went through a faze of being utterly disgusted by it and thinking about Freud's theory about and our subconscious feelings towards our parents and feeling the need to prove to myself that there is no part of me that is capable of committing or any part of me that is sick in the head. I kept thinking things compulsively and making myself worry, it took me a long time to stop worrying and get over this. A few nights ago I had a dream that I was going past this house and this gothic girl with black hair and lots of tattoos, really y, was laying there naked on her bed and i was thinking why doesn't she put some clothes on, shes such a slut and I was intimidated by how y she was and there were boys around who liked her and I was thinking she had no respect for herself, I kept going past and she was always laying on her bed naked so people in the street could see her in full view, then I was in her room and she was sad and a man came in and started having with her and she was crying and disgusted and somehow I knew it was her dad! I was thinking why is he doing that and I was distressed and disgusted, Im not sure if my mum was there for a moment and saw it to and I was asking her why he would do that (the man looked nothing like my dad at all and was, in my dream, a completely different person)...The person im thinking might have been my mum was probably the gils friend because in the dream her friend was there and was disgusted by it to and then I looked again and the friend was in between them and they were having a three way and I was like why would she join in??? however, the thing that worries me is that the girl had black hair and I dye mine black to and I want tattoos, Im not sure if that's relevant or if its just because I was jealous of her earlier in the dream as that's the kind of gothic look I think is y on women, I dint want as many tattoos as she had. Anyway its made me worry again that this means something about my mind and I keep wondering why has such dominance in my mind? i find it disgusting and the thought that anyone could want their parents or siblings and I worry that part of me is sick. Why do I keep worrying about this? why does it keep coming up in my head? I know this dream is muddled and im unsure of parts and might be getting mixed up but the general subject keeps worrying me.

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